Christ’s Love Compels Me

It’s so crazy looking back on what my life was before Christ. Before I actually knew Him, His ways, His teachings. My belief in God was so superficial. He was my spiritual ATM.  When things got tough I cracked open my bible. I went to church, occasionally.  I was at a spiritual stand still, up until about three months ago.  

Three months ago I found the truth. God’s truth. A truth that cannot be found in the majority of today’s modern Christian community. A true church of God that imitates the only example of a church found in the bible, the First Century Church, in all it’s radicalism.  

I encourage you all to seek after God whole heartedly.  God will reveal Himself to you if you give Him your whole self.  True Christianity takes a lot of commitment, but it’s so worth it.  It’s like going swimming.  Whenever you go to a pool you always have that first few seconds where you dip your foot into the water to test it, but it’s not until you actually jump in that you begin to enjoy the water, and have the full experience of swimming. In the same way, you can never fully enjoy and experience Christianity if all you do is test the waters.

At the end of this post I’m going to include the website to the most amazing, life changing church you will ever experience. The church is international, so definitely message me if you want any information about a church location near you.  Now, here are some of my favorite scriptures :))

2 Corinthians 5:13-15

13 If we are “out of our mind,” as some say, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 14 For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died.15 And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.

Jeremiah 1:5

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

Luke 9:23-25

23 Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. 24 For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it. 25 What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self?

Philippians 2:5-11

5 In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

6 Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
7 rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
by becoming obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
9 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11 and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.

Matthew 5:10

10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

God’s word is awesome, exciting and super intense! I was presented with the chance to study out the bible during a more personal study series with a few girls from the church I [now] attend.  The studies provide so much clarity.  I literally got the chance to look at God’s word and learn how to apply it to my life.  A lot of people believe that the bible has to be dissected and analyzed in order to be understood, but in actuality the New International Version (NIV), is written at a 3rd grade level. It’s one of the most accurate and understandable translations of the scripture.  With that being said, we will still need some one who has knowledge of the scriptures to teach us. Not by their own opinion, but solely by what the Word says.  

Below is the website for the main church in Los Angeles.  From here you should be able to find out as much about the church as possible. Please feel free to message me if you have any questions about the church or about my conversion story. Love you all!

So Grateful!

Hebrews 12:1-3

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

I am so absolutely blessed to be part of the kingdom of God! Just being able to see how powerful God’s love is and how completely undeserving we all are! God is an amazing God! My only hope in life is to be more and more like Christ, everyday of my life! It’s such an amazing feeling to desire God and His word! Getting fired up from the scriptures, and having brothers and sisters in the faith who can hold me accountable to God’s teachings is awesome! 

I am forever grateful that God chose me to be His daughter! He gave me purpose, direction, love, and family members all over the world! I get to run the race! Can’t wait until the day I get to meet my Creator; the author of life!

2014 Global Leadership Conference!

This past weekend I attended the 2014 Global Leadership Conference in Palm Desert, California! This was an amazing opportunity that truly allowed me to grow in my faith and ultimately in my relationship with God! There is no family like the family of believers! I love everyone so much and encourage anyone and everyone to attend next years Global Leadership Conference!

Troubled Writer

I like to write.
But sometimes my feelings are so abstract there is no deciphering them.
My emotions will travel throughout my body, surging from my heart, rushing to the depths of my bellybutton, jumping from cheek to cheek, twinkling in my eyes.
I try my best to suppress, but there is no hiding them.
I must tell someone how I am feeling.
But as I go to speak, only half of the words come out.
Reaching for a piece of paper and pen, I fill in the blanks.
Even so, there are still words left unsaid, feelings left unshared.
Though I never stop attempting to write, or speak.
For these, along with many others, are the healing methods of the righteous.

Free Spirited

Inside me,is a spirit that defines me.
Constantly affected by my surroundings.
Protected by the binding of words that make up The Word.
Shared freely with those I come in contact with.
Slightly reserved, with a willingness to be open.
Surrendered completely.
My spirit is not a secret, it is a testimony to the life I now live.
No longer trapped by death, a spirit that moves like the wind.
Forever within God’s embrace.
Never alone.
A spirit loved with a love that is everlasting.
Reaching towards eternity.
With an overwhelming affection for the living perfection, that guides and protects us.

Brown Girl, Cold Heart

To be visible in the eyes of the Creator,
is to be transformed, set apart, and zealous.
To be visible in the eyes of the world,
is to conform.

To be invisible in the eyes of the world,
is to be nothing but a little dark brown girl.
With curls softer than the night,
a smile luminous like the moon.
And eyes that sparkle like the stars.
She’s only nine years old,
but she’s got a cold heart.

Because it hurts too much to cry,

and tears wont solve her problems.

But her day’s will get brighter,

her soul will run like fire.

And as her cold heart melts,
she learns to love herself.
And as her love grows large,
she’ll take charge.
Her soul runs free,
and sets her heart ablaze.

They’ll be so amazed.

To be visible in the eyes of the Creator,
is to know your worth.
To be visible in the eyes of the Creator,
is to share your hurt.
So take my hand, show yourself,
to the world,
we will unveil…

May We Tumble Simultaneously…

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A Heavy Heart

(an old poem I wrote that I found while flipping through my journal)

Heavy is the heart that hopes for tomorrow.
With dreams so big, but her time is borrowed.
With a smile so bright, keeps her from crying.
Heavy is the heart that’s slowly dying.

But nobody knows the secrets she holds.

She sends a prayer up to God at night,
that she wakes to the morning light.

Because every breath of air is a gift to her heart, from her lungs.
And every word she speaks is the soundtrack to her mind.

Heavy is the heart that hopes for tomorrow.
With dreams so big but her time is borrowed.

Spiritual Elements

Water and wind.
Elements that will forever remind me of the spirt.
With the deepest of depths, and the strongest of pulls,
leading us into eternity.
Powerful and gentle,
Loud and quiet,
close your eyes, open your hearts,
and listen to the mysteries that lie within.
The secret messages between water and wind.
Two elements that represent the best of friends.
Loyal to one another.
obedient to the winds call.
fearlessly leading water from shore to shore.
In sync with one another,
they move with the same rhythm.
Two spirits,
guiding each other.
With sweet whispers that tell stories of the beginning of times.

Fundraising for Global Leadership Conference & Missions Contribution!

Dear reader,


My name is Courtney Smith. I am a twenty year old college student who has made the decision to live my life for Christ.  It has been about a month and a half since my baptism on May 11, 2014, and let me tell you, I have learned so much! It’s amazing how God continues to reveal Himself to me through His word.  By reading, understanding and applying the scriptures I have learned the importance of love, compassion, humility, and patience.  The world is full of darkness, and I hope to follow in the footsteps of our Lord and savior Jesus Christ, by being a light in the world, and in my own community.  My church, San Francisco Bay International Christian Church is asking each member to contribute $200.00 in order to continue sending out mission teams that provide faith based mentoring programs for teens and adults, as well as chemical recovery programs to help those struggling with addictions. Not only do I have a $200.00 dollar goal for missions contribution, but I also have a separate $200.00 goal in hopes of attending the 2014 Global Leadership Conference where I will be attending various women’s leadership seminars learning how to become a leader for women within the church.  So, in total I am fundraising $400.00 in order to help those in need as well as collect funding to attend the leadership conference.  Learning different leadership skills will allow me to continue to offer a helping hand through faith based mentoring and community service!



Courtney Smith